petiks time

im here at the office, doing an 'uptraining' for a higher service level. the trainer is our friend so he just gave a quick discussion of the topic for the day then gave us lots of free time.. aka petiks time. new schedule for the training is 10 am to 7 pm kaya hapi hapi uli. hehe.. wala magawa dito, puro proxy site lang ang pwede gamitin to access non-office related sites. for the first time in 3 months, i was able to sleep for a whooping 10 hours. hay, thank god! kamusta ang eye bugs ko from the 9 pm to 6 am shift ko noon. the uptraining is a blessing in disguise. i was really thinking of resigning or do job hunting if my schedule will continue on the night shift. stress, stress, stress! nahihirapan na ko sobra. no time for family, for friends, and no time for my boyfriend. hay, boyfriend.. so stupid of me to think that he will understand my situation all the time. he chosed a 4-day work load to give fridays and his weekend for us and his mountain bike hobby. syempre he's one of the few lucky people who had their dream job, the job that fitted their resume and college diploma, plus having the benefits of a normal waking and sleeping pattern for weekdays. with someone like me who works for the graveyard shift with endless shift and day-off rescheduling, keeping the fire burning for my love life is a big problem. i bought 2 tickets for enchanted kingdom 2 months ago and here i am, still keeping the tickets folded inside my wallet, which by the way, are expiring on the 25th. pasensyoso si bf maxado pero looks like hindi na uubra ang charms ko this time. he's ranting about time, as in quality time. usually my days off are mondays to tuesdays so magkikita lang kami for dinner, then usap ng konti, tapos usually tutulugan ko lang siya habang nagkwekwento sya about his day, about work, etc. then we'll go home, kiss goodnight, tapos uwian na. ganun na lang palagi. unlike before, especially nung nasa college pa ko where we can spend the whole day together, doing different stuff, eating like there's no tomorrow, watching a movie, sitting on a bench doing nothing.. just breathing and thankful that we're together while watchign the stars at night. mushy ba? hehe.. we've been together for 5 years now. yep, 5 long years! tagal nun noh? pero masaya. we met in college. i was in 2nd year while he's graduating. i joined this academic org where he's also a member and the rest, as they say was history. we never broke up, although there were difficult times. twice ko na naisip na mag-break kami, twice na kami nag-cool off pero it lasted for less than a week siguro. corny as it may be pero he really loves me. he loves me kahit na supladita ako, moody and stubborn. he's very supportive, he loves my family and my friends, and napakabait nya. akala ko dati wala nang ganun na guy ngayon, pero luckily i had one. we'll be spendign our 5th year of being together on the 23rd. hay, ano kaya pwede ko gawin for him? alam ko nagkukulang na ko masyado sa time for him. birthday nya 2 weeks ago. it was terrible. i just came home that day from the night shift. he was expecting me for his party, 4 pm ata yun. what happend? i overslept! i woke up at 7pm. kinaon nya na ko sa bahay sa sobrang bwisit sa kin. pagdating namin sa bahay nila, wala na mga bisita, paubos na food. patay talaga ko. he never said any bitter words about the incident. he acted as though wala nagyari, pero tahimik lang sya. so stupid of me. and that was the day that i promised to myself that i will give him an anniversary celebration that he'll never forget. the hell.. pano kaya gagawin ko?